My Moon, Chapter 4 pg 1
My Moon, Chapter 4 pg 1
Chapter 4:
Kant, who was staring at his close friend, shifted his gaze away and looked toward the drink stall in the distance to make sure the senior he had just nicknamed “the ultimate jerk” last week had left the cafeteria.
The painful love story of his close friend had happened quite a while ago. He knew that his friend had truly moved on from the other person by now, but because that first love had hurt Klai so much, it remained a deeply embedded memory in his heart. Just moments ago, when Klai saw Phii Shin walk into the cafeteria, he was reminded of the past once again.
Kant looked at his friend’s sweet face, thinking that the owner of that gentle smile shouldn’t have to feel sad anymore. It hadn’t been easy for those eyes to regain their sparkle as they had now. Yet, he wanted Klai to know a certain truth.
It was a truth that would let Klai know he wasn’t the one who ruined that relationship, that he hadn’t been deluded as he thought. It was all because one person had deliberately given his friend false hope.
The smile of the person in front of him brought Phii Shin’s words back to his mind. The expression and tone of Phii Shin showed deep remorse, but that didn’t make Kant feel any pity or want to forgive him.
“I realized it when I saw Klai crying in the library… I thought I should’ve stopped this back during the freshman orientation, but because I wanted to win, it ended up going this far.”
“Let me ask you, why did you let yourself hurt Klai’s heart just to win some argument with your friends?”
“…”
“Give me an honest answer, because if you keep lying, you’re not even human anymore.”
“At that time, I didn’t know why I went along with it… I just thought I had to make Klai confess his love to me, so my friends would know that what I thought was true, that I wasn’t just deluding myself like they said.”
“So, you’re just a complete jerk, huh?”
“If you’re going to curse me, I won’t get mad, because this has haunted me and made me feel guilty all the time.”
“I don’t even want to waste my breath cursing you, but let me tell you this… even if you feel guilty until the day you die, it won’t make up for what you did.”
“…”
“And why did you have to cut ties with Klai so harshly? Your words were so cruel to someone secretly in love. I think you know how hard it is to stop loving someone… but you still told Klai to stop loving you, right after he confessed his feelings to you. Let me ask you one more time, seriously… when you saw him crying, did you really feel guilty?”
“Because I really did feel guilty… that’s why I didn’t know what to do. I wanted to stop everything. I didn’t want to give Klai any more false hope, so I thought telling him to stop loving me would make him move on from me… so he wouldn’t be hurt by someone like me anymore.”
“Your way of thinking is completely messed up. There are hundreds, thousands of ways to reject someone, but you chose the one that hurt him the most. Did you think that someone who’s secretly in love would stop loving you if they were hurt enough?”
“…”
“The more it hurts, the deeper it’s etched in their heart.”
“…”
“But it’s Klai’s luck that he managed to move on from you.
“I want to see Klai… but I don’t know how to start talking. I don’t know how to face him.”
“It’s not strange that you don’t know how to start, because you did that to Klai. And it’s not surprising that you don’t dare face him, because you let Klai think everything fell apart because of him alone, when you were the one who intentionally gave him hope, making him believe you genuinely liked him.”
“…”
“I couldn’t believe all this happened just because of the word ‘win’.”
“…”
“I knows I has no right to ask you to do anything… but please, go apologize to Klai and tell him the truth.
“…”
“Let Klai know that, in reality, the reason the relationship fell apart wasn’t just him, but you too… so the guilt stuck in his heart can finally fade.”
“…”
“Do you know that Klai once told me he’d never fall in love again? Because he was afraid his secret feelings would make someone uncomfortable, like he thought he did to you. Right now, I really want to punch you in the face, because your shitty mindset single-handedly made a good person like Klai afraid to love anyone.”
“I’m sorry…”
“Don’t say that to me. You should go apologize to Klai.”
“…”
“But it’s good that now Klai has fallen in love with someone again. Even if it’s a secret crush like before… at least that person has made Klai believe in love again.”
“Klai has someone he likes now?”
“You don’t get to ask.”
“…”
“And I’m is seriously begging you… if you still have even a shred of human conscience left, go apologize to Klai in person just once.”
“I… already apologized to Klai.”
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