My Moon, Chapter 4 pg 2
My Moon, Chapter 4 pg 2
“When?”
“The day Klai confessed his feelings to me… I said sorry.”
“And did you tell him you were sorry for giving him false hope, for tricking him into confessing?”
“No… just saying sorry, that’s all.”
“Wow, unbelievable… I’ve never met someone this despicable before.”
“…”
“When you did something awful, you were bold enough to act without fear of being wrong. But when it comes to apologizing, you’re too cowardly to do it unless it’s in a situation where you don’t look guilty.”
“…”
“You’re the worst, man.”
Kant let out a sigh as his conversation with Phii Shin faded from his ears. That was the last insult he hurled at Phii Shin. The reason he encountered Phii Shin, which led to discovering the harsh truth, was that last week, a senior from Kant’s faculty invited him to a birthday party. He went to celebrate at the senior’s house, but upon arriving, he saw Phii Shin sitting and drinking there. Kant learned that Phii Shin was his senior’s friend from another faculty. Phii Shin seemed slightly surprised and avoided eye contact the entire time.
This time, Phii Shin couldn’t dodge him anymore. But since Kant didn’t want to make things awkward, he pretended to ignore him at first. After a while of drinking, when several seniors left to use the bathroom or smoke, Kant and Phii Shin were left alone at the table. Memories of the past flooded back, and with something weighing on his heart, Kant decided to ask why Phii Shin had been avoiding him and Klai up until now.
That question prompted Phii Shin to confess the whole truth. What Kant learned that day made him feel a sharp pain on behalf of his close friend. He never imagined that Phii Shin, who Klai always saw as a good person, could actually be this cruel.
Kant decided to tell his close friend the truth from the moment he learned it. But every time he saw Klai’s smile—someone who never thought ill of anyone—he couldn’t bring himself to speak. Telling the truth was incredibly difficult because Kant couldn’t predict how his friend would react.
Kant was afraid that…
If he told the truth… that sweet smile and those bright eyes might disappear again.
So he kept it to himself. Kant knew he was wrong—Klai had the right to know the truth. But he wanted to wait until after his friend’s birthday. He didn’t want Klai to carry bad feelings into his special day. Tomorrow, Klai should be able to smile widely and be as happy as possible, without any negative emotions tainting the moment.
Kant knew that he was likely the only one who would tell Klai the truth.
Because if they waited for that despicable senior to confess on his own… Klai would probably never know the truth in this lifetime.
“Frowning like that… what’s you overthinking about?”
The person being addressed quickly relaxed their furrowed brows and said, “No, it’s not that… I just think you’re right. No one can forget their past, and the past teaches us a lot.”
Kant knew he was starting to act suspicious when those almond-shaped eyes narrowed at him, as if catching him in a lie. He had never lied or hidden anything from his close friend, so keeping something from Klai was difficult.
“I don’t think it’s about what I said… What’s you overthinking about? You can tell me.”
“There’s really nothing, I just…” Just what? He was terrible at lying. “I just think… we should clear our plates and head to class. Otherwise, we’ll definitely be late.”
The sweet-faced boy frowned, putting on a stern expression, then raised his wristwatch to show. “We still have twenty minutes. I think that’s enough time to talk about whatever’s bothering Kant.”
“I… I’m still worried about not having the money to pay you back.”
“Kant…” The tightly knitted brows slowly relaxed. Klai looked at him with a serious gaze before saying, “Just tell me… what happened to make you look this upset?”
Kant let out a heavy sigh. Whenever he was troubled, Klai never let it slide. His friend always had to know, and every time, Klai helped ease his worries and find solutions.
How could he hurt someone as good as this?
“Klai… after your birthday party tomorrow, I’ll tell you the truth about something.”
“The truth… the truth about what, Kant?”
Kant took a deep breath before saying, “Can I ask you to wait until after your birthday?”
“Then can I ask why you need to wait until after my birthday?”
“Because you’re a friend I love so much… I don’t want bad feelings lingering in your heart until the day that should be your happiest.”
“The truth you’re talking about… it’s directly related to me, isn’t it?”
Kant let out another heavy sigh and lowered his head to avoid his close friend’s gaze. “Yeah.”
“Kant…” The gentle voice made Kant look up to meet the eyes of the person in front of him. A soft, sweet smile slowly appeared before Klai continued, “Sometimes, learning the truth can hurt. But if we look at it with understanding, we’ll see that the truth doesn’t hurt us as much as we think. And I believe the truth will reveal itself on the day we’re strong enough.”
“…”
“Right now, I think I’m strong enough to some extent… So please, Kant, tell me. Don’t let this keep weighing on you.”
“Klai… I swear I didn’t mean to hide anything from you. The whole time I’ve kept this to myself, I’ve never felt at ease because I thought you deserved to know.”
“I understand, Kant… Don’t overthink it.”
“…”
“Just tell me the truth now.”
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